Friday, January 31, 2014

A Praying Wife

Well we have officially made it through 31 days of the New Year. How quickly time flies by. I stopped to reflect this morning on how my resolutions were going. Am I truly making a difference mind, body, and soul? Eating healthier...check. Exercising...um later. Reading Bible daily...almost. Start devotional with Philly...well we have the books. Prayer...AMEN.
Prayer has been a blessing for me this month. Not just any prayer but an intense focus on a wife praying for her husband. My hope is to deepen an already amazing marriage. One of my greatest worldly blessings is my Philly. I truly married my best friend. Our arguments are far and few between. Laughter fills our house and there are still sweet kisses. Yet with years comes complacency, worry, and sometimes doubt. Complacency with not talking everything out, worry with what the future holds and how to handle the daily burdens. Not doubt with each other but doubt with ourselves and will we always be enough. It creeps in wether you want it to or not like little spider webs.
So I wanted to do some spring cleaning and prayer is the key to every worry and doubt.  "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."  Phillipians 4:6-7
I know that Philly has been on an emotional roller coaster this past year. He has worried about finances, car troubles, being at home too much, not being at home enough, working more, working less, dealing with an overly emotional wife who cries at the drop of a hat......ah the list goes on and on. I always try to listen but children always interrupt, I always try to stretch out my hand in support but some child is usually trying to grab it, and I always try to care but my attention always drift.
So the goal was to pray ferociously and fervently for my Philly. Asking God to help guide him with his choices, comfort his worries, build up his confidence in his role as the leader of this house, and destroy all the doubt. Pray for me to listen more, help more, and care more without interruption. Also to show love more in every way emotionally and physically.
To this point I see a huge difference. I see choices being made that I never thought would be made. I see a man dragging his family to church when we want to sleep late. I see a lightness in his step, and to my delight much more cuddle time. It has been a true Stab Of Joy.
To any woman out there I encourage you to pray for your husband. Don't do it boastfully and don't do it with expectation of anything in return. A better man makes a better marriage.
"The heart of her husband trusts in her, and he will have no lack of gain. She does him good, and not harm, all the days of her life." Proverbs 31:11-12
Now onto exercise...gggrrrrrr
With love and faithfulness,
Kristie

Sunday, January 26, 2014

Alone and Cold

This picture says it all. It describes exactly how I have felt the past two weeks. I have just been cold in the inside longing for warmth and comfort.  Cold literally and spiritually. I have been sick for the past two weeks but the past few days have knocked me out. I took this picture a few days ago and had no idea how accurately it would apply to me. My remedy was sleep and more sleep. You would think this 37 year old would know what too much sleep does to my mind and my soul. I fall into a depression.  Sure I pray and I read His word but the deeper and deeper I fall. I think it is genetic. I remember my grandmother in the end of her years sleeping more and more. I saw what it did to her emotions. I see the same in my mom when she deals with hard times. So here I am a girl falling into abyss. My thoughts become consumed with negative energy. "WHY AM I LAZY?" "WHAT DOES THIS MAN SEE IN ME?" "WHY HASNT A FRIEND CHECKED ON ME?" "IS THERE MORE THAN THIS?" "WHEN WILL MY KIDS SEE THE REAL ME AND SEE I AM NOT THE BEST?" It is like a sledgehammer damaging my mind with each blow. 
Then with the grace of God the fog disappears and I can breathe the truth in again. I had to take a long by myself radio blasting drive to figure it all out. "I AM NOT ALONE!!!!" He is with me and through Him anything is possible. I realize all of those doubting questions are irrelevant because I am too blessed beyond words with the ones who love me. 
I pray these past few days are fleeting and that they dont make my acquaintance again. I pray that I take care of my mind, body, and soul so the deep sleep never comes again.  I pray that I stay steadfast in His Word and it consumes the madness with light and energy. 
The passage that rescued me:
"Praise be to the God and our Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort,  who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows. If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer." 2 Corinthians 1:3-6

In love and faith,
Kristie



Wednesday, January 8, 2014

Stabs Of Joy

I am overwhelmed by how many sweet people have been so encouraging and actually happy about me writing again. Of course I think none more than me. However even if there is one other person out there enjoying what I have to say then that is amazing to me.
My previous blog was called God's Daily Grace but my heart really yearned to start something new. I first heard the phrase Stabs Of Joy at a Christmas church service. The Sunday before Christmas the pastor asks the congregation who would like to share their Stabs Of Joy.  People shared so much and I literally couldn't breathe by the end. The stories of the sick being healed, the poor being rescued, and the church body coming together to help those in needs. It has become my favorite service every year. Our pastor's simple request is God gets all the glory and time after time He does. 
After doing a little research I found that Stabs Of Joy comes from a novel by CS Lewis called The Simple Joy. In this book he narrates the events in his life that transformed him from an atheist to a Christian. He refers to Joy as being beyond earthly pleasure as the feeling is so immense us mortals can not create it. It is breathtaking and gives us a feeling we desire to have again. It can even break our heart sometimes. After you have felt it or witnessed it; you then realize it can only come from God. I have been hooked on this saying ever since. I have found myself blessed many times to have experienced Stabs Of Joy. Whether it was the birth of my children,  seeing a Folly Beach sunrise, hearing "I DO", or actually feeling the Holy Spirit rescuing me; I keep longing for that Joy. As I become older and more aware I see that presence surrounding me and it pierces me every time.  I feel it every day when I see these faces...

Or when I hold the hand of my Phillip.  I earnestly pray that you too reflect on the One who loves you and welcome those Stabs Of Joy.

In love and faith,

Kristie

Monday, January 6, 2014

Mind, Body, and Soul

So happy, so happy, so happy....After 2 years I am finally writing again. I couldn't be more happier. Special thanks to my Philly who got me an amazing tablet for Christmas so I could get back to my "passion". Of course it took me weeks to come up with a new name, a new focus, and a new design. Yes I am a little OCD people.
I am not going to reintroduce myself but rather start a new. It is the New Year anyways...
As with every New Year I make list of things ( I am obsessed with lists) that I will never look back at after a few weeks. Yet this time I am starting a new approach. I want to improve my mind, body, and soul. I want to be centered in Christ and with this intense focus I truly believe that every thing else will be exactly as it should.
Mind, Body, and Soul
I want to be a witness to God's grace and mercy. I want to be a prayer warrior for every person I know. I want to be the kind of mom that loves with patience and gentle understanding. I want to adore my husband and lift him and our relationship to a level that he and we have never known. I want my heart to experience daily Stabs of Joy when God shows His presence in my life and others around me. I think this pure joy that only comes from Him through prayer and devotion will make every inch of me (and there is a lot of inches) fulfilled.
I hope to uplift you and share all of these beautiful experiences.

In love and faith,
Kristie