Thursday, July 31, 2014

Midway check in for a praying wife...


I don't believe in accidents. Everything happens for a purpose. There are no accidental pregnancies, no accidental diagnoses, no accidental meetings, and no accidental beginnings or endings. There are no things by chance.
I also strongly believe that there are no accidental nudges from the Spirit. That gut feeling you get when you know the difference between right or wrong. That instinct that persuades you to do something completely out of your comfort zone but let's you know it is for the glory of God. That is the almighty powerful Spirit advising, warning, guiding you to do His will. NO ACCIDENT.
When I began writing again I prayed that I could do it honestly and sincerely. I hid from it for so long because I know I would be a hypocrite. The first nudge I felt was to pray sincerely and passionately for my husband like I never have before. One of my first entries was about the immediate changes I saw especially in how he was leading us into our prayer life. I prayed for his health, his stress, and his ability to lead. I had no idea that I was praying for a man whose life was about to be turned upside down by me and my sin. But my God did. Again no accidental occurrences.
God knew what this man was going to need and how spiritually equipped he needed to be. My God, our God, is so good. Hubby took in my confessions and gave me back mercy, forgiveness, and support. He immediately went into the default mode of a servant of Christ. Later he would tell me that while his heart was breaking God was rebuilding it.
I continue to pray for hubby every night. How dare I not. The prayers change along the way depending on our current circumstances. Some are very simple such as ease his back pain to the ones that are scary like "Lord lead this man into unknown territory to do works that will honor you and serve people other then this family." Woo!!!! That's a hard one but it what the Spirit urges me to do.
This man falls asleep in two seconds and immediately my hand is laid on his chest covering his heart begging for God's grace to fall upon him.
I love when hubby comes home and energetically talks about something I just prayed for the night before. I have to hide my smile because I an not the one to get praise.
Over this 7 months of prayer I have become a better servant to him, a better listener, a better fan, a better partner, and without a doubt a more honest wife. It is refreshing to have a no holds barred conversation with your spouse. I see his trust growing in me too as I easily share my anxieties and fears.
It is amazing that while we pray more diligently about the needs of others He is in return strengthening and equipping us in ways we could never imagine.
Is this marriage perfect? Absolutely not!!!! But it is God's and that my friends is no accident.

'Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.' (Philippians 4:6-7)

With endless love,
Kristie

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