My Philly (Phillip to the rest of the world) is not a romantic. There are no flowers on a whim, poetic words, our surprise date nights with no kids. Yep not a romantic bone in this man's body. I did one time get a "just because" flower but the "just because" was actually he forgot the date of my birthday during a conversation. It was early in the relationship so I did cut him a little slack. Romance is not a spiritual gift of my Philly. I am surprisingly okay with that because he brings something to the table that I hold in reverence. He is honest. His word is his truth. I love you means I LOVE YOU and I am mad means I AM MAD. Thankfully and rarely do I get the latter. So when I have to go to my husband of almost 15 years and admit sin; "it's hard" is an understatement. "Well I just want you to know that I have been keeping a little thing from you that is actually larger than a mountain that includes stealing and lying for longer than you have known me." Let's just say love left that man's voice and heart and it was replaced with anger, hurt, and lost trust. Let me also just say that it had every right too. Yet it was still truth and it was deafening. When the silence came.....Yeah not so good. When you don't hear the emotions then you don't hear the truth and that is lonely beyond words.
Four days later when I heard that voice I think I finally exhaled. There was no anger just a man left heart broken but ready to forgive. A lot of tears shed and a lot of grace and mercy for a lot of betrayal.
That night when we lie in bed finally talking I felt comforted. Remember his words are truth. "We'll get through this." "I love you." "You would love and forgive me if a did a million times worse."
But then.....Romance. My Philly said something that pierced my heart. It took me weeks to have the courage to tell him how much it meant without crying. It took two months before I could write about it without crying. Yet I think of it and remember the truth in it every day.
As his eyes fluttered to a close and the snores started setting in he halted that quick sleep to whisper "Everybody loves a comeback story and I can't think of a better person to do it." Then off to sleep he went with me left crying in praise.
That truth he spoke was faith. Faith in me. Faith in us. And faith in God.
I honestly believe that the most romantic words that man just said to me came from the Holy Spirit. Not only did Philly forgive, believe, love, and have faith but so did my Father a million times more.
Four days later when I heard that voice I think I finally exhaled. There was no anger just a man left heart broken but ready to forgive. A lot of tears shed and a lot of grace and mercy for a lot of betrayal.
That night when we lie in bed finally talking I felt comforted. Remember his words are truth. "We'll get through this." "I love you." "You would love and forgive me if a did a million times worse."
But then.....Romance. My Philly said something that pierced my heart. It took me weeks to have the courage to tell him how much it meant without crying. It took two months before I could write about it without crying. Yet I think of it and remember the truth in it every day.
As his eyes fluttered to a close and the snores started setting in he halted that quick sleep to whisper "Everybody loves a comeback story and I can't think of a better person to do it." Then off to sleep he went with me left crying in praise.
That truth he spoke was faith. Faith in me. Faith in us. And faith in God.
I honestly believe that the most romantic words that man just said to me came from the Holy Spirit. Not only did Philly forgive, believe, love, and have faith but so did my Father a million times more.
"And through him to reconcile to himself all things, whether on earth or in heaven, making peace by the blood of his cross. And you, who once were alienated and hostile in mind, doing evil deeds, he has now reconciled in his body of flesh by his death, in order to present you holy and blameless and above reproach before him," Colossians 1:20-22
There is no romance greater than that between us and our Lord. It is pure Romeo and Juliet. He dies so that we may spend eternity together. It is cupid piercing our hearts with love for the One and Only. The Groom waiting for his bride so He can lavish her with love and mercy. His words are truth. My dear sweet beautiful friends whatever struggles...whatever pit....whatever sin is holding you down....He has faith in you. He has written a comeback story and He can't think of a better person to rise from the ashes.
In endless love,
Kristie
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