Many tears will be shed this morning as we watch our little ones, medium ones, and big ones enter a new classroom today. This summer was too exceptional to say I am a happy momma now that I have peace and quiet again. The chaos, the laughter, the messiness, and all in between was sweet sweet therapy for me. I wish it didn't have to end.
Tonight as we tucked the nuggets to bed there was nervous tummies from child and parent. We prayed for safety, happiness, success, and the ability to share God's love whenever we see the opportunity.
There are a few things though that I want them to know as they start a new chapter.
1. I expect way too much from you and I hate myself for it. I want straight A's, perfect attendance, teacher's pet, the best liked, and great compliments as status symbols. I want these things more for me then for you because I want to make up for all I did wrong. For all I didn't have. For some ridiculous validation that I am a great parent.
2. If you are none of these things above I will still think you are the most perfect thing ever created and have great pride in all you do.
3. There will be many many mornings I will fail you. I will blame you for being late or unorganized because...well that is the easiest thing to do. In fact it is my fault for not preparing myself spiritually and emotionally before I wake you up. The thousand red lights are not your fault and as soon as you close the car door I will be wrenched with guilt for not being a better mommy.
4. Every second you are away I will be lost without you. The saying "you complete me" doesn't even come close to how I feel when I am apart from you.
5. You actually are the bravest person I have ever met. I am 38 and get anxiety over talking to someone new. Yet we require that you make your way into a new world every year. Meeting new people, finding who you are, learning ridiculously confusing things, trusting new friends, and relying on an adult that isn't me.
6. I want you to be your teacher's favorite so you will be the most loved but in fairness I pray they will love everyone equally. I will not always agree with every teaching style and if they don't hug you I will be devastated but the truth is they have to be pretty spectacular as they selflessly share with me in the journey of raising, teaching, and protecting you.
7. I am so scared that one day you are going to come home and officially be smarter than me. Yikes!!!
8. There will be parties, field trips, awards day, and plays for years to come and there will be many times that I will not be there. Please never think I love you less then the mom or dad that is always there. It breaks me when I can't get away or be there to support you. I want to see your face beam when you are in that spelling bee. I pray one day you will understand those big sacrifices we big people have to make.
9. I selfishly pray that during the day God shelters you. I pray that YOU are the one spared from bullets, bullying, viruses, rumors, and all the other yuckiness that is around you. May a thousand angels wings cover you daily.
10. That first moment every day when I see you after our long separation my heart skips a beat. I hope too see a smile spread across your face assuring me that you made it through another day with success and once again I have you all to myself until tomorrow...
Tonight as we tucked the nuggets to bed there was nervous tummies from child and parent. We prayed for safety, happiness, success, and the ability to share God's love whenever we see the opportunity.
There are a few things though that I want them to know as they start a new chapter.
1. I expect way too much from you and I hate myself for it. I want straight A's, perfect attendance, teacher's pet, the best liked, and great compliments as status symbols. I want these things more for me then for you because I want to make up for all I did wrong. For all I didn't have. For some ridiculous validation that I am a great parent.
2. If you are none of these things above I will still think you are the most perfect thing ever created and have great pride in all you do.
3. There will be many many mornings I will fail you. I will blame you for being late or unorganized because...well that is the easiest thing to do. In fact it is my fault for not preparing myself spiritually and emotionally before I wake you up. The thousand red lights are not your fault and as soon as you close the car door I will be wrenched with guilt for not being a better mommy.
4. Every second you are away I will be lost without you. The saying "you complete me" doesn't even come close to how I feel when I am apart from you.
5. You actually are the bravest person I have ever met. I am 38 and get anxiety over talking to someone new. Yet we require that you make your way into a new world every year. Meeting new people, finding who you are, learning ridiculously confusing things, trusting new friends, and relying on an adult that isn't me.
6. I want you to be your teacher's favorite so you will be the most loved but in fairness I pray they will love everyone equally. I will not always agree with every teaching style and if they don't hug you I will be devastated but the truth is they have to be pretty spectacular as they selflessly share with me in the journey of raising, teaching, and protecting you.
7. I am so scared that one day you are going to come home and officially be smarter than me. Yikes!!!
8. There will be parties, field trips, awards day, and plays for years to come and there will be many times that I will not be there. Please never think I love you less then the mom or dad that is always there. It breaks me when I can't get away or be there to support you. I want to see your face beam when you are in that spelling bee. I pray one day you will understand those big sacrifices we big people have to make.
9. I selfishly pray that during the day God shelters you. I pray that YOU are the one spared from bullets, bullying, viruses, rumors, and all the other yuckiness that is around you. May a thousand angels wings cover you daily.
10. That first moment every day when I see you after our long separation my heart skips a beat. I hope too see a smile spread across your face assuring me that you made it through another day with success and once again I have you all to myself until tomorrow...
Best wishes to all parents, teachers, and little nuggets that are starting a new year.
With endless love,
Kristie
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