Push For Help...

Have you seen the viral video of the man stuck on the elevator that went up 30 floors in 15 seconds? Can we please scream YIKES for this man? The elevator doors would fly open every floor and I just kept waiting for it to open to a deep abyss.
I kind of feel like I have been on an out of control elevator myself lately. Less life threatening and my choices caused the out of control part of course.
I guess in terms of floors correlating to my life I am waiting for the 38th floor to swing open soon. I am not going to lie; I am terrified of it. I have no idea of what it has in store for me and that is the most terrifying.
The 37th floor was nothing to write home about although I guess I did a lot of writing about it huh? I am exhausted over this floor. I experienced loss, sin being exposed, a million sorries, a billion tears, a lot of forgiveness, and some shattered faith in me. I only pray this stuff doesn't carry over with me. I have way too much baggage.
I wish the elevator could come to a screeching halt and take me back down 15 floors. Can we please say do over? Or maybe we can go a little faster and just skip the next few floors. I guess life doesn't work that way and the unknown is becoming the biggest battle for this anxiety ridden soul. Don't get me started if this contraption can even hold my weight!!!
All I know is if I were that man I would be hitting that red PUSH FOR HELP button ferociously. Just waiting to hear that voice come from nowhere hoping he can save me.
Well my friends I have a PUSH FOR HELP  button and that is my God. He is my everything and my only rescue from not only this disaster but every other disaster from here on out that's awaiting me.
I have been filled with so much grace, love, and mercy that my heart can barely hold it. Before I would have been that skeptic that called a person like me an obvious fake just trying to hide the truth. Well the Word is my truth and it is my refuge. The Living Word lets me know I have been ransomed, redeemed, and remade. I can order it covered, smothered, or any other way but His grace is all around me.
In less then two months the 38th floor will open wide. It's going to be filled with expected events like 20 year high school reunion (oh my), 15th wedding anniversary, and many kid moments. Then there is the unexpected which is what it is.
Gosh I am pushing the button with all my might and holding on to that voice. Thanks for riding with me still.

"Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need." Hebrews 4:16

With endless love,
Kristie